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Parallel Mammogram

I felt as though I was in a parallel universe. Living two years ago, sitting in the small sitting room at the Breast Center awaiting news from my radiology nurse. Continue reading


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Smaller Boobies: It’s Liberating!

I’ve spent plenty of time with a “generous” chest measurement. By the time I reached 8th grade, I was already in a C cup. College? I was in a D. By the time I was in my 40s, I had was filling up a DD.

For those who’ve lived their lives thus far in an A or a B and wished for a D, be careful what you wish for. There are far more cons than pros to have large boobies. Shoulder ruts, back aches, and difficulty sleeping. There are limitations in exercising. Try jumping jacks with DDs on your chest. My sports bra for running could suspend the Golden Gate Bridge. Shopping gets difficult for more than dresses. Tops sleepwear and lingerie are a challenge. And once you reach DD status, buying a bra is like joining a country club.

They sag faster and make you look older than someone even older than you that requires a lesser cup.

It should be needless for me to say that I’m overjoyed with have less now. I’m not sure exactly what size I’ll be after radiation but at least I’m closer to what reality will be in the not-to-distant future and I don’t look lop-sided anymore.

I already notice a difference in the weight of what I’m carrying around. Straps don’t dig into my shoulders and it’s much more natural to maintain good posture. I’m sure – with time – I’ll notice the difference in back aches and quality of sleep. And I can’t wait to go shopping! I’m holding off until radiation since the transformation isn’t totally complete, but I can already tell by the clothes in my closet that the difference is going to be significant. For what altering would cost, I can probably just buy some new things.

I hope radiation doesn’t make me too sore! When I complete my 36 or so treatments in early May, I’ll want to shop for some new things for Summer. I feel like I’m being set free to pursue a new world of styles that are designed for the full-figured!

I’ve been liberated!